Walking on air

December 3, 2009


Pregnancy

I don’t know if motherhood is a good thing.

I am thoroughly nervous and rather uncertain how the future holds for us. To be honest, I am not even sure half the time if I can be a good mother or a good parent. I just hope I won’t be a horrid one who doesn’t seem to care how the kids grow up just because I have too many kids. I don’t want to be some parents who assume the school would take care of their kids education while we just chill and do nothing. Parents are not like that. I grew up with my mum guiding me - even if I rebelled and was unhappy with the rules and such. But she was also the reason why I could use the excuse “My mum won’t allow me” just so I can avoid certain things.

My husband is also worried. First of all, neither of us have access to our parents - his is too far away and while mine comes for a visit once a while. And I have to care for the child alone most time when he is away working. Though, now, I can tag along with a child if he travels to other places. I am literally stuck at home for now because I am just too heavy and tired to even bothered to move much.

Sigh.

November 18, 2009


One thing about patience is that sometimes you have to redo everything just so it is all right. Texturing is a pain. Seriously a pain. But when it comes out well, boy, am I pleased. But rigging the bones is something else all together! The bikini was easy ot make but the bloody thing was tough to rig.

One thing about patience is that sometimes you have to redo everything just so it is all right.

Texturing is a pain. Seriously a pain. But when it comes out well, boy, am I pleased.

But rigging the bones is something else all together! The bikini was easy ot make but the bloody thing was tough to rig.

November 10, 2009


Leonard Ugwu

“My dear,

How are you doing with regard to your family? Guess is fine; I’m looking for someone to be mine. Actually my name is Leonard, I’m 34year old single, being sincerest, caring, God fearing, honest with great sense of humor. I will like to have a solid relationship with you, which I believe it will start from here.

However let’s get to know each other first. Please tell me about yourself.
Thanks to read my message hope to read from you soon.

Regards,

Leonard.”

So not interested!

November 7, 2009


rendered in Studio3

rendered in Studio3

October 27, 2009


Sometimes, self-photography is fun. But never with a dslr. I need to play with my camera soon.

Sometimes, self-photography is fun. But never with a dslr.

I need to play with my camera soon.

October 23, 2009


So I got bored.

So I got bored.

October 17, 2009


A child is precious, irregardless who the child belongs to. I can’t imagine what sort of person who want to hurt others, especially kids. I really dislike the thought of someone sexually abusing a baby. I love that little girl :) and I can’t wait to see what she would grow up as…

A child is precious, irregardless who the child belongs to.

I can’t imagine what sort of person who want to hurt others, especially kids. I really dislike the thought of someone sexually abusing a baby.

I love that little girl :) and I can’t wait to see what she would grow up as…

October 13, 2009


No one should work right after they get married. Imagine this - man and woman take a vow before God and witnesses. The next day, both went seperate ways to work. They should, I believe, take a week off to just enjoy the fact their are married. But it could just me and my little belief.

No one should work right after they get married. Imagine this - man and woman take a vow before God and witnesses. The next day, both went seperate ways to work. They should, I believe, take a week off to just enjoy the fact their are married.

But it could just me and my little belief.



Sometimes, it feels like the world is a million miles away from worries and whatnots. You’d never guess that the beauty you see before you holds too many pain and misery and poverty. Going to Jakarta was interesting, especially to the old capital, Batavia. I guess it was a lovely place to be but only to some places. The other buildings looked more or less abandoned. The roofs were falling off. The paints were chipping away. Gaps and holes in the wall and windows. But I also know that money is tight and seriously, when people are poor, food would be on their highest priority than trying to mend a building. It’s scary to think how people would give up many things in life for food.

Sometimes, it feels like the world is a million miles away from worries and whatnots. You’d never guess that the beauty you see before you holds too many pain and misery and poverty.

Going to Jakarta was interesting, especially to the old capital, Batavia. I guess it was a lovely place to be but only to some places. The other buildings looked more or less abandoned. The roofs were falling off. The paints were chipping away. Gaps and holes in the wall and windows. But I also know that money is tight and seriously, when people are poor, food would be on their highest priority than trying to mend a building.

It’s scary to think how people would give up many things in life for food.

October 11, 2009


When I first came here, I went to the other church to look at the beautiful things in there. I did not took any photos inside because it was small and people were praying. The outside of the church was beautiful - people walking in the park and just simple enjoying the sun. The second time I was here - I was getting married. The priest was from Belarus and for some reason, I thought he and the statue of the priest looked identical. The statue of this particular priest, if I am not mistaken, was the founder of the church.

When I first came here, I went to the other church to look at the beautiful things in there. I did not took any photos inside because it was small and people were praying. The outside of the church was beautiful - people walking in the park and just simple enjoying the sun.

The second time I was here - I was getting married. The priest was from Belarus and for some reason, I thought he and the statue of the priest looked identical. The statue of this particular priest, if I am not mistaken, was the founder of the church.

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